一星期時間 - DAY 1

昨天，我們在一起 7年又8個月了。

但，卻大吵了一架。

說好給彼此一星期的時間，

冷靜一下 并且考慮是否要繼續下去。

心痛著 淚流著

卻沒辦法阻止

今天是第一天。

早上 還有個面試。

前一晚 還夢見面試的情景

也許是有些緊張吧。

沒準備好，面試有點糟

卻覺得也許還有一些些被錄取的希望。

（我是个乐观主义者哦）

買了午餐 回宿舍休息。

睡了一個下午

夢裡 都是他

老實說 我平時都不會夢見他

若他出現在夢裡 也都是一些不開心的事情

就例如

夢見他離我而去

夢見他與前女友復合了

夢見他不再對我體貼 不再對我愛護有加

每次這種夢醒來 都會傷心還一陣子

甚至有時候還會哭

而他 總會在我醒來後笑我傻

（我还是想坚持一下 我真的是乐观主义者哦） 

但是喔

在我今天午睡的整整六個小時里

夢裡都是他

夢見他帶我去旅行

我們說了很久 卻一直沒去成的旅行

夢裡面 我們一直開心的相處

一起開心的到處遊玩

一起買冰淇淋吃

一起拍照

就好像 沒發生過昨晚的大吵一樣

迷迷糊糊醒來好幾次

再睡回去也是一樣的夢

我甚至以為 昨晚的大吵 才是夢

手機被拿起又放下 卻不能打給他

做了這么開心的夢 

我卻怎麼都開心不起來

（我真的真的是乐观主义者哦！

但今天 请允许我伤感一下下）

此時，天空轟隆轟隆的響

討厭下雨天

更討厭沒有你陪伴的下雨天 

P/s ：趕緊洗洗睡 明天還是要上班

哈兒嘚，芳溱

漫长的假期 之 玻璃市篇

假期的第二个星期，

我就陪着妈妈回到玻璃市。

爸爸妈妈的公司是在玻璃市和泰国的边界。

做的是，Trading Agent。

详情呢，我就不是很清楚。

就大概像 马来西亚 & 泰国 之间

Export + Import 的中间人。

嗯，大概是酱。

哈哈！我有点不孝捏~~

当了他们二十多年的女儿，

却不懂他们的工作。

但这不能怪我啊，

因为他们的工作太复杂、太难懂了啊~

 Okay…

所以，在那边的一个星期

我到底干了什么呢？

唔……

就，

醒了冲凉、

冲凉后就吃、

吃饱后就和大哥一起玩 online game、

玩累了就吃水果/ Yogurt、

然后吃饱了再继续玩、

最后，睡觉。

除此之外，

妈妈还带我去弄 border pass。

然后带我去泰国 SHOPPING !!

呃呃呃~~

虽然都是我妈妈付钱。

嘻嘻…

但是人家以后会努力赚钱还的。=.=

还有呢， 我想澄清一下。

我真的真的有问妈妈说，

需不需要我帮忙。

她却回答说，

“等我教到你会，我自己都做好了。”

   

所以，我还能怎样呢。

所以，就此总结说，

我就这样过了一个很悠闲、享受的一个星期。

 就酱！

 P/s : 我玩的online game 是 Maple Story。

Hearts, FC

漫长的假期

我已经过了快五个星期的假期。

没在炫耀的意思，

但真的过得太清闲了，

我基本上快闷坏了。

虽然有到檳城玩一个星期，

玻璃市玩一个星期。

但是，

但是！！！！

剩下的时间都呆在 SUNGAI PETANI 的婆婆家。

朋友啊~

我小学是在玻璃市上的，

中学是在檳城上的。

朋友们都在这两个州的我，

是要呆在婆婆家干嘛啊>.<

好吧，其实能干的东西还是蛮多的。

例如，

·         偶尔早醒就陪爸爸吃早餐

·         吃饱了，就看一会儿的戏

·         看戏看到闷了，就玩线上游戏

·         玩闷了，就睡一下

·         还是闷的话，就找找看家里有什么能吃的

怎样，我的假期够充实吧？

这么充实的假期，

换来的代价就是整整肥了一大圈。

我真的没在夸张。

所以，我真的觉得我是比较适合住在外面的孩子。

一回到家，

整个人就变懒散了，

而且还吃超多又没运动。

可是，我很喜欢兼享受和家人腻在一起讲废话。

而我最近的烦恼是，

快毕业了，得尽快找到工作呀。

接下来几天，可能会写写下

关于去檳城和玻璃市的事儿。

期待吧~

我就纳闷了。

为什么我的头发
总是在我没出门的时候才那么漂亮。

就酱。

Hearts, FC

"That is MANNER."

It's just another NOT-MY-DAY day.

I sprained my little ankle AGAIN
when I walking down the staircases.

I’m holding a box of stuff,
and it actually block my sight. 

So I just estimated where is
the end of staircases.

And obviously I got it wrong 

& my mistake cause my little ankle sprained.

Although is not until the levels that I couldn’t walk,
but I will feel there’s something wrong when I walk.

I could not walk fast too.

Because I’ve already hurt some part inside my ankle. 

It might be not as serious as last time.
But it still sprained right?
So the pain do exist too.

**BIGSIGH**

Hmm, throughout these few weeks,
I know more about people here.

(I'm referring my workplace for internship.)

Especially some PEOPLE.

I’m not going to mention
who is it and I’m not going
to elaborate the stories here.

WHY?
It’s simple.

Cause you're curious about it~

XDDD

LOL=.=

Ok, serious.

Cause I do not want them to stay in
my MEMORY, my HEART, my MIND
even just for a single second.

But..
Yea, there’s a BUT.

I will always remember & remind myself
about what have I learnt from you.

- Never treat a person too good, especially the people you just get know.

- The more you talk bad about people, 

the even worse impression other people will have on you.

- Apology is cheap if you’re using it too often. 

- High EQ might hurts your own self sometimes.

I’m just glad that you are not the one
that I need to work together with.

Oh ya, I have be grateful too,
that I figure that out by NOW,
but not the last day of my internship.

I don’t care how good the relationship
you have with the people around here,

I will only get my job done here &
complete my happy internship here.

Know what?

I have a good supervisor
who encourage and teach me a lot.

I have a good colleague
that always talk in a sweet voice.
(Her smile is cute too.)

I have met some other interns
that always help me out
when I face some problems or
when I have too many things to settle.

Sorry that I have too many 

good people to hang around with, 

please allow me to reject YOU.

Please continue your life of GOSSIPS

I will not stop you.

And

I wish you get a WELL-PAID JOB
by using the FANTASTIC GOSSIPS SKILLS that you have.

P/s:    I will still talk to you with a smile face.
       I’m not being fake,

       My incredible Mum said,

       "That is MANNER." 

Hearts, FC LEO

Fragile

So, as I posted in FB,

The bad feelings always come true.

It’s not only one thing that happened.

-Case 1-

One of my friend, 

phone me during my working time.

Errr, although it is true but also quite sad to say that, 

she only calls me when the

NOT-SO-GOOD-THINGS happened.

And yes, I got it right!

She failed one of the subjects for last semester.

I was like,

“Hmmm, okayyyyy..

So what should I say now??

I'm really sorry to hear that,

but I'm not sure what kind of response 

I should give then only won't hurt her. 

 -Case 2-

In my internship place,

I did a mistake too.

Which I forget the time to go for 

invigilates the students who are having their exam.

The exam starts at 12.45pm, 

and I should be there around 12.30pm.

When the last time I look at the time is 12.16pm, 

and I thought still have time for me 

to complete some work.

(I keep remind myself not to be late later)

And this is how I get too into my stuff 

and forget the time.

I received a call from a staff that is 

in charge with all the exams stuff in school.

She’s asking me where am I now 

when I should be invigilating the student at the moment.

And when I rushed there, 

it’s already 1pm.

-Case 3-

Yesterday night, 

I went out for lunch with 

Chai Yeen and Mei Mei.

Then Ah Joyce and the gang said 

will come and join us.

By the time I reached there, 

Ah Joyce them not yet reach 

so I sent her a message. 

After sent the message, 

I just simply tell that Mei Mei,

“Actually later they don’t want to come ady.”

And again, my prediction came true.

She replied me say that will have dinner together next time. 

Because one of the members said that 

the restaurant serves food quite slow.

Scary right??

But it still not the end of the story yet.

-Case 4-

Last night again, 

after we done with our dinner, 

we’re heading back to our hostel.

And Mei Mei keep winding down 

the car window then shout and laughing like crazy.

Although I scolded her,

but I can feel there’s something happened to her.

It’s just I’m not sure it is a happy or sad things.

And when we reached hostel,

She tells out everything.

Which she couldn't continue 

her study here anymore and 

she’ll be leaving by this Wednesday.

I can see the tears in her eyes, 

and so as Chai Yeen’s.

And suddenly, Mei Mei started to cry.

I know that if I also start to cry,

both of them will cry more.

So I try to make the least emotion 

on my face and start to joke around 

with idiot words and stupid jokes with them.

Chai Yeen held backs her tears and laughed.

Then Mei Mei also laughs back 

after wipe away her tears and starts scolding me 

about spoiling the atmosphere.

So what? 

I'm still prefer to see her anger than her tears.

But then she starts to questioning me 

about why am I so emotionless.

Maybe I make her feel like she’s not important, 

because I do not show any reaction at all.

I do not want to answer this question, 

because it might break my “wall” 

and make me wanna start to cry.

So I questioned her back,

“What kind of responses do you wanted to see?? 

Okay, let’s pretend that I don’t know yet, 

you tell me one more time 

then I give you other responses.”

They start to scold me and laugh again.

Then I walked to Mei Mei 

and give her a big tight hug.

I hope she can feel what I feel 

when giving her that hug.

The worse things is,

I some more dream about this last night.

End up I wake up in a sad mood 

and cried in bathroom this morning.

The one that close with me 

know that I used to play music 

when I’m taking my bath.

Normally I play the songs 

with happy melody during morning, 

so that I will have happy mood 

for the whole day.

(This is just what I believe la=.=)

But, I'm not moved by the songs 

that I always get excited with at all.

Then I try to sing along.

As I start to sing, my tears burst out.

Then only I realize that 

I'm really not in the mood 

to listen to any happy songs.

At least for now, 

it makes me feel more sad.

So for the rest of the day, 

I mean during my working time, 

I listened to the piano songs in my computer.

the piano songs like Yiruma,  

Studio Ghibli collection & the Disney.

I’m just feeling like I want to listen to music 

that do not contain any words.

***************************************

I know that it is not possible that 

only good things happened in life.

But… 

Can I choose that the bad things 

do not happened all together??

It’s like I have to receive 

so many negative news within 2 week time.

P/S: 

Never know that I'm just that fragile.

Please allow me to be emotional few more days. 

Hearts, FC